Our old self :)

when you want to go back and sometimes you reminisce. When you've over reflected on the past and the only thing that you can say is that: "I miss my old self".

When I was with Miss Aiyen last night, went for a little chat and grab something cold either delicious to eat. We saw two pretty girls. Maybe they are rich cause one has a car and look self-sustained. They were talking about parties, exclusive bars and clubs. Bragging about boys, studies and common friends. I started to think that do I really need those to be happy? That on that same spot we're just talking about work, how to make money, sustaining on our studies, our wants and needs. We also love to party, to have fashionable clothes and shoes and to have our own.

The sudden memory flashbacks of our old high school days. When we don't think about a lot of things, the contentment that we had. How our world evolves in only focusing on our studies, mingling with our friends, what food to eat at the cafeteria, senseless talks that makes sense to us and graduating. We miss those times without any worries and stress.

Now that we have to make money to pay for our studies. We are so eager to work, to make money and fix our lives. That we want change in our lives. We are not just bums who kept living in our own homes and still being provided by our parents. We want to make something out of our efforts and needs.

Maybe we don't envy the two pretty girls who has almost everything in the world. I realized that we just miss what and who we used to be. The times of real contentment and real laughter. Where money, laughter and having it all was just an easy thing. That's how life works, sometimes your up and your down. But we put things in the right decisions. By the way, speaking of decisions, I remembered what the adults used to say: "It's easy to make the right decision." But sometimes, right decisions don't turn out to be so right at all.  Still, I am not putting all the blame on what the adults may say. I'm just saying that we must start to realize how our loves are evolving on to where and what to. Decisions may be wrong or right, we just need to face every step on what's happening. Sure, we cannot turn back time, all we can do is change it for the better.